259

Talented

I am not actually talented

that term has never been present,

it has never crossed my mind

I do what I feel, I feel what I say.

Every sense of time and space

conjugated, translated into verses

eternal alumni, no professional light

but the sun in my eyes

the feelings bursting out

the ideas that come across

I am afraid and inspired, that's all.

249

Abduction

Abducted by your darkness

your stream of consciousness

I am so thrilled, I wake up,

losing the cliff heights,

no lighthouse, no lantern

your extinct love fire

missing you, needing you,

pondering the possibility

of losing that unique and only

poetic point of view.

235

Barco

Todos piden saltes del barco,

nadie sabe nada de nadar

ni siquiera sé si quiero

tal vez note que éste es el mar muerto

se hunde aquel barco,

aquél del que nunca hemos zarpado,

que no hay a dónde escapar

más que a los recuerdos, la memoria

de lo que no se ha concretado,

de lo que jamás se compartirá.

218

Nothing

Nothing to be said,

nothing to be done,

nothing to carry out

when life is bottom up.

In the eye of this beholder

utterly atrocious

simply lousy

all this to describe

how awful my rhymes

actually look like

how disappointing they are

to my very eye.

161

Downward spiral

Again a downward spiral

of possible maybes,

of thoughts and illusion,

of everything supposedly

having been buried down.

I had once said no,

no more involvement,

no more silly ideas in my head,

no more stupid mistakes -

yet am I still so childlike.

What should I believe in?

How should I proceed?

When will I finally learn

from the bitter, sour taste

of previous life events?

83

Demystifying

No one has become my saviour,
no one will ever do that,
but it is my demeanour
the only way for this to end up.

The only agent or factor here
has turned out to be me
in the past I must've misheard
all the words my heart uttered.

I know I can't fully rely on others,
and now I wouldn't like to be bothered,
though I'm aware there's a huge problem
if I supress people in the name of honour.

30

The sea

I must break the cicious cycle

that keeps me enchanted

caught by denial

that prevents me from overcoming

such a hard matter.

Breathe in

a tidal wave is approaching us,

it is coming for you and I.

Breathe out

better time are just around the corner,

run to the shore, we'll be fine.

19

Sixty kilos

Sixty kilos of self esteem,

sixty kilos of rhymes,

sixty kilos of life

sixty kilos of leaves

almost on the ground.

Ribirth was an ideal

the goal to be achieved.

An attempt to get as hard as steel

sensible, yet tuned in.

12

Rollercoaster

There's this magical rollercoaster

I'd never like to get off,

rolling and spinning

like I had never felt before.

I'm smiling, closing my eyes;

I forget, at least for some time,

about what's going on,

the filthy habits I'm eager to get rid of.

11

Uncertainty

Red lights sparkle

I'd better leave now,

life seems like a puzzle

when the destiny is uncertain

when it asks me to read,

each of those blank pages.

7

Fear

Here taking off

may not represent the biggest issue,

but that of the consequences

of being so afraid,

the question of not making the attempt,

of applying for that scholarship,

of escaping without a clue,

of walking without a route,

of being so free,

of making stupid mistakes.