Showing posts with label self love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label self love. Show all posts

Friday, 1 March 2019

252

Anniversary

Three years have been
since I began a new lifestyle -
walking around the world
totally make up free.

Of course it soon expired,
yet none of that matters.
It is like dropping a mask,
a time consuming costume at last.

I know people do not really mind.
Trust me on this one,
people their own film star
you are just a cameo in their lives.

Thursday, 14 February 2019

238

Lucid dream

My big lucid dream
is overcoming us;
for at least a little while -
living in peace,
finding some peace of mind.
I only want nothingness
for I have nothing here
I only want lack of time
to avoid reflecting upon the past.
Not much shall I find
if nothing spins around,
if no signal beams back.
However, neither hearing colours
nor trading with your tongue
seems to be a sensible option now.

229

Quietness

Nightime darkness,
silence quietness
providing me with a right
a kind of free pass,
thus without words,
without signs I can;
I allow myself to hide my tongue
to carefully lay below stars
and picture you and I
without us going bacj.
It is sensitive indeed
although not necessary enough
if thought twice.

Monday, 4 February 2019

222

Resignation

Dizziness, low pressure
nothing clear at all
small remembrances
of what could have been
all this unless proved wrong.

Slowly dying
muting is my body
hard scalp left behind
as if for a moment now
a new person could I become.

Impurity resigning
so little to be done,
unwilling to be polished.

219

Equilibrium

Equilibrium
between shades of life
has never been so difficult
as it seems right now.
I ought to go on,
but before this, first
breathe in harmony,
breathe out peace of mind.

Rollercoasters
please make them stop;
no more second rides,
stumbling upon the same stone
I yearn to get off
no more may I allow.

Wednesday, 30 January 2019

209

Take a look

Sunshine
first thing in the morning
catch a glimpse of the sunlight
rays not entering yet.

Body
first thing in my bed
catch a glimpse of my body shape
my skin still there, invisible.

Take a look ar myself in the mirror
take a look at my body after August
take a look at this envelope
had to take a selfie
I had been exaggerating
got the wrong picture in Winter
for am I so beautiful.

Thursday, 24 January 2019

198

Maintenance

The daily maintenance,
this temple keeping up
with a healthy lifestyle
in order to prevent myself
from making more mistakes
in order to forgive myself
for the inflicted damage.

In no sense whatsoever
does this have to do with pride,
or fake smiles back,
but with accepting, correcting
who matter of factly I am,
on deeper levels I wish to connect,
to foster meaning relations
so as to grow up.

Friday, 4 January 2019

181

Digitally

Your digital creepy voice
begiing some attention,
craving desperately for love
without a clear notion
of where to go
or how to make it stop.

The, I shut this down,
I forget about this stuff,
the intangible, for a while -
I begin to stretch out,
since no matter how hard I try
you are not around now.

I focus on the steps,
for I need my whole strength
on the tempo of the waltz;
on polishing my fifth,
the demi pliés, the soufflés -
I remind myself of the grace
when performing a relevé.

169

Distant Monday

Throughout a distant Monday
the main topic arises,
the topic seems to have appeared -
the question of self love
of self sufficiency
all about being needy;
all about amends making.

Barely may I recognise
from a relatively short distance
the flute of the future,
and needless to say,
may I look back to the flame
of the recent past gates.

I self diagnose vertigo,
every second a heavy stone
a bit more must I push forward.
Where is the axis
for a peaceful existence?

Every time I firmly claim
to have come up with a clear notion,
or a steady Bible to follow
an even fiercer storm
is just around the corner.

So sudden the angst,
a scorch does my skin perceive.
A freezing cold breeze
my hair so abruptly ruffles,
and it turns into resistan fur,
it allows Darwin, consequently,
to boast about his theory.

Although the psychic hurricane
has pulverised all strength,
has weakened all possibilities
of once again rebuilding
or even about me caring
I am still working hard,
for either me or anyone
who might want to come around.

Naked do I hug myself,
indefensively do I touch myself,
checking if there is no missing part,
checking if I am a survivor
of this unequal battle.

Thursday, 3 January 2019

158

Self portrait

I lock the door for a minute
I stare at myself in the mirror
I don't recognise that person
standing in front of me
for this particular reason.

I recognise lots of changes
as if I hadn't seen myself for ages,
yet it's not something negative.
I'm very fond of my body shape
for of my inside it's a silent witness.

This gaze in the morning
was a kind of rediscovery
to spot strengthened branches
to acknowledge this vehicle
that I will always carry.

Wednesday, 2 January 2019

148

Self lovely-like

Imperfection is perfectly achieved
only and insofar as I prove myself
absolutely capable of dissolving
the very same old roots;
completely capable of evolving
into the one I always wished to be;
fully capable of resolving
all those matters relying
both before and beneath me.
I believe that actually is,
in my humble opinion, 
how self love ought to be.

146

Disruptive

How far are you willing to go on?
How long trying to run off?
Nothing, in fact, changes at all
unless you stop feeling drown
with each of you teardrops.

Stop acting like a victim,
martyrs are not popular;
why not investing energy and time,
and master that ability instead
of finally moving forward?

Sunday, 30 December 2018

141

Twenty-six

Once more round the sun,
twenty six years old so far...
to be honest, have I grown up?
As I am still unruly, still childlike.

Hey, wait a second...
I have pulled off the trigger
is that so wrong?
I still gather material, reckon.

My rhymes get sloppy,
but I still play with their etheral beauty.
I grow highly intense portraits,
I grive, suffer through laments.

Saturday, 29 December 2018

134

Appreciation

The only appreciated,
acceptable human being
I could possible be
is that kind
who allows herself to live,
who is always thirsty
of meaningful experiences
carefully treasuring;
the one who, last but not least,
allows herself to set free
no matter whatever
may come out of it.

132

"Me"

I'm not quite sure
who that person is
that person I usually call "me".
Nontheless, I'm fond of me's ideas.
I guess I mean
when they finally come out
as twisted, yet priceless.

Monday, 24 December 2018

118

Flow

Sometimes you flow,
sometimes you don't -
not anymore.

You see,
life isn't all about sorrow,
or how things used to be.

It's about realising
when it's time to leave,
and the unmeasurable relief
after the so expected breakup
with yourself and others.

Sunday, 23 December 2018

112

Sixth sense

Immediately after closing my eyes
the gloomy scenario turns clear and sound,
yet not everyone is capable of that;
in fact no one really does
no one is as perceptive as you are.

Every word I attempt to utter,
every Summer leaf I'm eager to caress
everything seems to somehow resemble
the shape of your lonely heart,
perhaps your sixth sense had figured that out.

Hardly ever in my lifetime
had I felt this way
in other words, that is to say
to get so intimate so soon
so as to draw myself in the nude.

Friday, 21 December 2018

107

Friday

Today it's Friday
it's a brand new day,
it's perfect for starting up
for forgotten projects to be run.

Only one piece of advice
for you to bear in mind:
look for a nearby river,
and let all concern flow there.

What already belongs to the past
in our histories should remain.
What is happen to next
is entirely up to us now.

But never miss this out
unless you may want to give up:
both the opportunity to grow up,
and to leave all negativity behind.

102

A veces

A veces las cosas pasan
y no hay vuelta que darle.
A veces las cosas pasan
sin que puedas escaparte.

A veces las cosas pasan
y dan vueltas como torbellinos.
A veces cuando menos lo esperás
estás bailando al borde del abismo.

No soy quién para aconsejar,
nada creo haber aprendido de amor y amoríos,
pero tampoco es tarea fácil dejarme doblegar
por lo que dicta el libre albedrío.

Sin embargo es menester un armisticio
entre razón y sentimientos;
y en ésto mentir no me permito:
yo también hago cosas sin sentido.

A veces las cosas pasan
y bien hacen en darse una vuelta
porque así me doy cuenta
del placer de estar viva, suelta.

91

Artistic block

I've been with this artistic block
since I was 21 years old;
the only thing I know for sure
is that living life was I trying,
that since then did I begin wandering
in order to obtain knowledge,
in order to save some money
for lots of notebooks of poetry filling
with stanzas, with verses
about spiritual life and death,
about my innermost curses.
From beginning to end...
until that day comes
when nothing more will be said
unless there's no expire date,
and I hope it will remain the same.